Early! =)

I've learned my lesson! =) I have to use my time wisely from now on, so better start posting! =))

Sigh... =

So... Today... Hmm...

Oh yeah! We celebrated Mae's birthday today! =)
We actually made it look like we forgot all about her birthday, and thus we ended up with a "belated" celebration.

She was REALLY happy!

LOVE YOU MAE! =)

It was a CRAZY party I tell you!
We had pizzas and soft drinks (they were plentiful BTW) And we goofed around a LOT!

After eating, we proceeded to showing Mae a presentation for her birthday, Powerpoint Presentation, and it was really neat! A lot of Mae's friends participated, gave crazy but really touching and meaningful messages. There was even a video of our friend Wendy who's currently in the US of A, it was great seeing her again, though only in a video recording, moreover, it was really heart warming to hear her voice again.

WE MISS YOU DOTZY!!!! =)

After that, we kind of went our separate ways already, well not really disperse, but... I don't know, we sort of like did our own thing. Then one by one people left. And then Ennah came up with this crazy idea of making a music video! =)
(Well, music videos made by us, are actually those videos wherein we "act" and then in the background a song plays. Some what like those you see on Myx, MTV, or [V]. Only, we just lipsynch to the song.)
IT WAS CRAZZZZZZY!!!
REAL CRAZY!
But we had fun, and it was really tiring as well... Well I guess all the laughing tired us out! =))

After that? We stayed together, me, Ennah, Darlene (Talento), and Mae... We sort of roamed around, met this and that... No one significant really. (Well, I mean no significant conversations, etc.)

We talked about a lot of stuffs! From slippers to the prom, to the year organization, CSA, Fair, Sports fest, and many many more! =)

It's really nice to have substantial people to talk to! =)

Lesson:
Time really flies without you, it waits for no one. (Have to learn that the hard way.Sadly)
People change, but that doesn't mean they aren't who they used to be, its quite contradictory right? But its true. I guess people can't really change who they are, they basically just keep on adding layers and layers of "masks" to hide who they really are and what they really are so as to be able to cope with this world's "trends". And to be able to see through those facades is a treasured ability that people desire.
Errors can easily be seen when you are using a different perspective to look at things, usually by looking at your handy-works with your perspective it's perfect, but try to look at it from other's perspective and you'll find errors you didn't see before. So never judge an individual by what they do, maybe they just don't see things the way you see them, and that's not a crime. The crime is when you act rashly to the circumstance of judging the person in question.

ooops.

Wah! =( I am supposed to be updating my blog daily, but due to time constrains, it seems like today's (a.k.a April 29, 2008) post would be dated as tomorrows, since its already 12:30am....

Anyways, here's what's for 29!
And YUP, I will also be posting tomorrow, ergo today. =)

April 29, 2008

Sleep

Yeah, sleep... I slept 14hrs! Apparently my body knew that I didn't actually have anything planned for today and so it kind of ensured that I get back on my sleep.

Happy Birthday Friend!!!

HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY MAE!

Mae Chan Li turns 17 today! =)
Love you Mae! =)

You really are special, something that we are blessed with! Stay the same! And thanks for all those times we've spent together, I know there are quite a lot of times that we both are busy with "work" and our other friends, but despite that you still are always there for me! THANKS A LOT!!! =)

Death
I was supposed to actually have been able to post on-time. But as I was using the computer a while a go (about 10:40++ pm), my mom asked me to accompany her. We went to La Funeraria Paz a.k.a Araneta Paz. The grandmother of one of my batch mate and friend died. (Ryan Yu)

And it just got me thinking, we humans really don't have a say in our lives do we? Whatever we do, it has its limitations pre-set already, even before we begin. We are very limited, whether it be our strength, our emotional and mental capacities, and most especially our life. We don't know when this ends. We have the slightest notion of our future. The list goes on and on, but I'm afraid I'd better stop here, for if I continue it might already offend others, at the same time, I might sound so "emo" =)

Lesson:
Sleeping is good, but everything in excess is always bad. =) [generally that is]
Its always good to have friends who are there just when you need them, not just when they are available or when they "need" you.
Life is uncertain, but it doesn't mean that its all bad. We still can work some things out, and as I have said before, hoping is never a bad thing. =) Again, caution though on hoping too much.

Agony || Bye Chiz! =)

I am once again in that state of being where one is subject to emotional "lows" with unknown reasons.

What to do?

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Anyways, today my beloved friend Chiz leaves for Australia. Yup, and if I am correct, at this very moment she already is at the so-called "Land Down Under"

Since she left just this evening, we had her spend her last few hours in the Philippines with us! =)

(Kevin D. , Gladys)

Well there actually were some more, but they only were with us as we ate our 10 o'clock brunch.
After which, we went straight to Chiz's crib. There we played, and played, and played. It does sound quite dull, but believe me! With those people? Boring moments are never present!

We'll just have to wait for her arrival by May 6? I kind of forgot the exact date, but its roughly that.

We left her house by around 2:30pm BTW.
(We had some other plans, and besides, her dad comes home at three, and by then she would be busy with the final preparations for their trip.)

As for the rest of the afternoon?

I spent it in the computer shop. I was there for like 2-3 hours? Yeah, I am quite an addict. =)

Actually we (me and Almond) planned to leave by 4pm, but the weather interfered. And so we were sort of stranded at the computer shop for another 90 minutes.

And then finally the rain came to a halt. And so we parted ways.

I guess life shouldn't always be planned, don't you think?

"A day out with friends."

Was all I had in mind when I left the house, no more no less. I knew I was going to spend half my day with Chiz and the others, and then the other half playing online games with Almond.

No expectations, no preparations, no disappointments.

All in all? It was great! =)

Lesson:
Things don't always go as planned. As cliche as it seems, it is actually a sad reality. Sometimes though it actually works for the better, but not always. =)
And always hope for the best, at times, "hope" is the only thing we can cling on to.

Autumn Frost 2

I guess my wings aren't strong enough to bridge the gap between us.

My strength too feeble to soar higher, faster.

I guess you're just too high for me to reach.

Even as I try to fly towards you.

You constantly drift away.

Why?

First Sunday

Yup, exactly as the tittle states... Its the first Sunday, the first Sunday that I have to pass without my dad. I think, more than any other day or days, its during Sundays that I'll really miss my dad.

Only during Sundays do we have the most bonding time in the whole week, as a family. And usually, occasions, special occasions are held during Sundays.

Every Sunday we tend to go out, YUP. EVERY (that's as far as I can remember st least).

I thinks, its just that there are quite a lot of changes that I have to cope with. A lot of "Sunday routines" or practices that have been... How do I say this... Broken?

*Sigh.

I miss him.

But I do know, that this is all for the better! And that

"All things work together for good, for those who love the Lord!"

=)

Lesson:
Always keep God in mind.
Especially His words! =)

Observant!

Your Observation Skills Get A B+




Your senses are pretty sharp (okay, most of the time)

And it takes something big to distract you!

How Observant Are You?

How I wish I got an "A"
Oh well, I can still try to improve can't I? =)
I guess this should "top" my list for today. It's getting quite out of hand.
Obviously, these are boredom born... So bear with me. =)
But hey, they are quite fun you know, Personality tests. TRY SOME! =)

WHAT?!

Your Scholastic Strength Is Inspiring Others




You are great at developing a vision, and getting others to adopt your way of thinking.

You are talented at leading, balancing tasks, and helping people work together.



You should major in:



Counseling

Environmental studies

Law

Social work

Political science

Nursing

What Should You Major In?

Willow...

You Are A Weeping Willow Tree




You are a dreamer, and you're into almost any kind of escapism.

Restless and capricious, you love to travel to exotic places.

You are easily influenced by others, as long as they don't pressure you.

You tend to suffer in love until you find that one loyal, steadfast partner.

An empathetic friend, you love to make others smile and laugh.

What's Your Celtic Horoscope?

oopsie =)

You're Totally Sarcastic




You sarcastic? Never! You're as sweet as a baby bunny.

Seriously, though, you have a sharp tongue - and you aren't afraid to use it.

And if people are too wimpy to deal with your attitutde, then too bad. So sad.

How Sarcastic Are You?

Swan?!

Your Power Bird is a Swan




You are a truly graceful and gorgeous creature.

You easily see beauty in yourself and others.

Intuitive and in touch, you can often guess what the future will bring.

And you're flexible enough to accept the changes that life has in store for you.

What's Your Power Bird?

Malfunction?!

Its really annoying! The fact that I seem to have this writing sickness that somewhat sets a parameter on my pieces. I mean as far as I can remember, I have been blogging like this, like "boring" this.

So far? I can't seem to let go of the usage of "apparently", "currently", "some what", etc! Haven't you seen?

Its really depressing! Knowing that as a writer, instead of improving, I'm stagnant! Not to mention the fact that I feel like before being stagnant, I even stepped back a little.

*sigh...

People has always been saying that the way I write is usually very "flowery". Too flowery, as some may put it. But I... I don't really know.

I think its no secret, the fact that I actually envy Chiz's way of writing. She has the ability of disposing pompous words without having the slightest notion of being a "know-it-all".

I want that, but I guess the more I try... The worst I become.

I feel like a broken recorder. You know. One that ALWAYS repeats the same thing again and again. No matter how many times you try to have it change the way it does things, you never succeed. I feel so trapped. Its as if I'm to stay in this repetitive event that never seems to be over. The feeling that no matter what you do, and how you do them... They always come out the same. I feel powerless.

So much for that... (I guess)

I really would like to , like Chiz. blog about my day. But I guess its just not me to do so. I can't seem to find the right words, nor the right way of stating the events. You may say that writing is really a free form type of art. But still, it has standards, mostly? Standards I impose on myself. And one of the greatest disappointment one can face it having yourself dissatisfied with yourself, failing yourself.

So I guess, its better this way then... I'll just try to enumerate them! HAHA =)

Today:
1. Was at Monique Gaw's house early morning. Yep! Real EARLY! (7:00++am)
2. Went to Makati (with Monique) , to Chemworld to be exact, and attended a seminar on Perfume making.
Yey! I now know how to make perfumes! =) And they actually allow you to be about to make perfumes that smell exactly like those commercial ones! =) Namely? D&G, Bvlgari, Lacoste, Paris Hilton. ETC! =)
[NOTE: Message me if interested =)]
3. Instead of buying stuffs for perfume business. We settled for scented soaps instead! Easier, cheaper, and much much more SALABLE! =) And we went to her house to actually start the "soap scenting".
4. Apparently (see? here I go again...) after all those,
I had to rush to school for choir rehearsal. And since my day was really jam packed, (We walked A LOT btw... me and Monique) I was sweating BULLETS! And I think at that time, I really smelled awful already. So, being far from home, I had to turn to my ever so reliable friend Chiz! Since I didn't really want people backing away from me right? So I called her up, and asked if she could spare me a shirt, and she did! =) She even gave it to me! If only I had time, I would've showered off... But I was really running late, so I just went to.... HEY! I don't really think I have to share these do I? Anyways, to make the short story even shorter, I mad it to choir practice smelling & feeling fresh! =) (though the shirt was a little tight)

Lessons:
Friends , TRUE friends I mean, are really a BIG BIG BIG help! Never ever underestimate a friend!
And you're never TOO young nor TOO old to be an entrepreneur.

If THERE's A WILL... WAYS CAN BE FOUND! =)

Today?

Well, nothing really special today.

We went to 168 Shopping Mall again, apparently for the same reasons. I needed clothes, and so did Mae. And so we went. We brought Ennah along, she somewhat acted as our fashion guru, who decided which to buy and which to ditch. Nielsen came along today, she was in a sort of a dilemma. She is ( along with Rochelle) to participate in a Model Search (at least I think its so) TOMORROW! Yup, can you believe? Tomorrow. And she was still in the process of completing her outfit for the runway! (The contestants were just given the theme. ) And so... We shopped!

Boy! Was it tiring! We were able to buy... some though.

Unfortunately? I am currently REAL sleepy...

As for the day?

Well, Uhm... Let's see...
-Voice Lesson
-Piano Lesson
-GE (Yeah, I was able to play... for 30-40minutes?)
.
And basically that's all! =)

Just awhile ago, I took a somewhat "Personality Test" that sort of determines what kind of a blogger you are. And the results were quite as expected if I must say.

It says:

Your blog is smart, insightful, and always a quality read.
Truly appreciated by many, surpassed by only a few.

I don't want to brag, but I do agree. At least before, in the past I can say it was. But currently? Its become more of an Online journal, that just keeps track of what I do daily. Pretty boring huh?

But I will do my best to regain my status(?!) =)

Lesson:
Just keep on trying! Everything I did today were things that required PATIENCE and PERSEVERANCE which as we all know is really needed in our lives.
Choosing clothes wasn't easy, nor was walking around the mall checking stores one-by-one and trying stuffs on; but we know that we needed it, and so we pushed through.
Singing and playing instruments aren't skills that can be nurtured overnight. They're to be EARNED! =)
Also, online games are a good simulation of life. Though life isn't always as easy nor is it always as hard as RPG's (role playing games). Games like those really give you a taste of what life is. You need to train and work hard to be "strong" and defeat challenges. And at the same time you'll have to learn to earn money and respect. Lastly, some might be against this, it also teaches one how to behave properly, and how to work with other people!
So always keep in mind PATIENCE and PERSEVERANCE... not just in our minds... But more over in our actions! =)


*RPG : Games which follow certain plots ; in which you get to control character(s) and control them as the story of their life(s) unfold.

So?!

So... Today is the first official day that my dad's far away. I don't really feel it's difference, at least in the morning. Since during summer mornings, my dad's already at work, thus I don't really get to bump into him too often. Its when night falls, that's when I THINK I'd probably feel its "weight"(?).

Apparently, I usually stay up late OL (online), as most of you might know, and my mom doesn't really stay up late... That's when my dad comes in the picture. He's the one who ensures that I go to sleep, and he's also the one who stays up and waits for me to finish everything I have to do and then only sleeps when I am in the room. (We sleep in the same room BTW... My WHOLE family... Immediate family that is)

Sigh...
Well, so much for that... =)

Today was really something, we went to 168 Sopping Mall to do.. obviously... do some shopping. But only Mae was able to buy something. I guess I was just TOO picky... or the clothes were TOO picky... =)

Anyways, after that we (me and Gladys) spent the rest of the afternoon at Chiz's place. We watched "Disturbia" well at least the second half. And as we were watching, Willy (haha, I guess it wouldn't hurt if I mimic they're way of addressing him ;] ) came. The original plan was to scare me, yup poor old me. But since Willy came, I got to borrow his PSP and somewhat was not paying that much attention to the screen anymore, and so they didn't have had the chance to scare/frighten/shock(?) me! LOLx

*Thanks Willy! In you face Chiz, Dobz, Demiee, and Donway! haha

After that, we played Bleach on (I guess you could use on... right) Chiz's PS2... Apparently, we were successful in tiring out our vocal prowess!! haha, We shouted quite a lot! =)

Again, this entry is somewhat something to show my gratitude to my BELOVED friends! YEP! BeLOvED!! =) Thanks again guys!!

Love Lotz!!

Reasons

So as expected, my dad left for China this morning. Yup, he's staying there, well working actually, for "bench/". He'll be home every three months, at least that's what 'they' said he'll be able to.

Anyways, this morning we (well actually he drove) drove him to the airport to say farewell, and for some reasons I was sad.

Well, I guess it's quite natural to be so, I mean after being used to living with your dad for like 16 whole years of your life, its quite... new?

Apparently, after considering... I finally was able to come to a conclusion, and finally finalize the list of reasons exactly why I was sort of sad.

1. I was perhaps really surprised, to see my dad leave. I mean yeah, before he did have jobs out of the country, but as far as I can remember it was never more than a week, but I guess its more on now I know that this trip would take longer... perhaps longer than what I can tolerate. Seeing him leave was really something. Sitting in the car and knowing full well the reason why you are there in the first place.

2. I may be thinking too much ahead. I am some what scared of what might become of us. Yeah, I know its not really that big a deal, but for my whole family this is really something new. And I think I can actually say that I am really concerned as to how my mom would react. She obviously is fine, I can tell. She's really strong, ans she has God. But I guess I'm really afraid of me not being able to take care of her the way she would've been taken cared of if my dad was here.

3. Guilt. Something inside me sort of wants to blame myself for the fact that my dad has to leave, and consequently leave us here. Unconsciously I guess I pushed him, and kind of forced him to leave. I mean recently we (me and my sisters) are quite complaining a lot, it has gone on for quite a while now ( I think), and as a father most likely he felt that he was a failure for not being able to meet our wants (yup, wants... the needs? he took care of 'em).

4. Change? As human, even if we confess it or not, we are really vulnerable to change. Well, at least most of us, I for one am. I guess am just sort of really scared as to how our lives might turn out, now that he's far away. We are used to having him around...

5. Lastly?! Is it not obvious?! I'll miss him... =)

It really is a load of when you write is it not... =)
BTW, thanks for taking time out to read...

As for today? Well, as anybody would've done... I consoled with some friends, and boy! What a great help they were!

Thanks Guys!! You know who you are.. =)

And just to get my mind off stuffs? I kind of splurged a little on games =) *thanks Mondie!

about what I feel right? How can I leave "I" out? I guess that's it. I am really really sorry. Apparently this entry of mine breaks one of the most highly regarded rule in writing... The "I (eye) disease" , I really am sorry. But hey, I was writing Lolx...

Well, I guess its about time I end this.
Thanks again guys!
As for me? I believe I will be able to cope...
Some day...
Some time....
Some how...

No! *sobs*

This just in...

So it seems, we are going to be out tonight....

God!

I do hope they spare all these "crying" tonight.

I mean, yes! Of course! I am as sad as them to have to see my dad leave... But... I don't know.

Apparently my mom just told me to abruptly stop using the computer the moment my dad arrives, she said we're going out.

What do I do?

Gluttonous

What a day! The original plan today was for me to go to school, meet up with some friends and go play (literally play), then come home by four.

Well, I did go to school, I was able to meet them, and I was able to play. But after that, slight changes in the plan occurred.

When the clock had stricken four, we had to part ways. I had to go to my mother's "office" and supposedly go home. Apparently though, some "Taiwan Visitors" (yep, I know it's supposedly "Taiwanese Visitors" but hey, it was our school that wrote on the board the word "Taiwan" without the "ese" so who am I to argue?) were present at our school, and they were "roaming" in the school.
My mom said that we still aren't allowed to leave (at least she was) until the "Visitors" had passed her office already. So I had to go to the nearby "Jollibee" for snacks... and this is where it all began!

Would you believe?!
* I was originally going to elaborate on what I ate... But I'd rather not =)

It was surprisingly A LOT though. =)
I guess now I don't have anymore right to ask and wonder why I am like I am (I guess it's obvious which part of me I'm referring to =p)

How gluttonous! =)

Okay, so I guess this is one of those posts that aren't really substantial right? Well, I think that's probably because I really want to write, and yet something within me is sort of holding back. I originally intended to write about my dad leaving for China tomorrow, but I can't seem to put it to words right now ...
Anyways, tonight (as my aunt would put it), we might not go to sleep, and just wait 'till the morning comes...
I really don't wanna think about it... let alone write about it. Perhaps some other time.

*Sigh...

Why Freeze?

It really hurts doesn't it? To remember past failures, heartaches, and most especially disappointments.

It hurts, the wound burns. But what can I do? I don't have control over God right?


*sigh

I don't think there would be any use... would there? To dwell in pain.

Currently I am helping a friend with her problems, a job description that has long been part of my resume but as planned, it would soon not be. At least not as in-depth as I do now.

When June comes, 'they' shouldn't know me no more. I'd be someone they'd never expect I can be. That means having to learn to hide emotions, especially pain, much much more efficiently.



By then, I have to really be "frozen".

Sleeping

So my birthday passed... *sigh* what an occassion that was. Anyways, as expected from an indolent guy like me, I wasn't able to post on that day, nor on the next day, good thing I have persisten "blogger" friends.
So feel free to check out what happened on my bday from these links below... =)

http://denicesy.blogspot.com/2008/04/happy-birthday-my-lve.html

http://denicesy.blogspot.com/2008/04/ivans-birthday-at-moa.html

http://chioarocks.blogspot.com/2008/04/im-too-tired-to-type-it.html

*phew! What a hassle! For some reasons I can't "copy paste" those links, yup, I had to type them manually. Well, if they didn't work just check out their blogs whose URL's are part of the links on the rightmost column of my blog (namely "Chioa's" and "Chiz's)

I would also like to take this time out to thank the following:
>Gladys Yu
-Giselle Yu
-Marvin Chua
>Darlene Talento
>Darlene Keng
>Marion Go
>Monique Gaw
>Rochelle Cheng
>Jefferson Sia
>Katrina Tee
>Rachelle Fabico
-Bernadee
>Walter Yuloque
>Denice Sy
>Ralph Chioa
>Cindy Ong
>Mae Chan Li
>Audrey Lu
>Kevin Dionisio
>Nielsen Jaranilla

Thanks guys! YOU really made my 16th Birthday memorable!! =)

BTW, these people were those people who really took time out to make my birthday special.

Some of them even stayed up until 12 midnight just to greet me a "Happy Birthday".
(names in Yellow)

Some greeted me exactly on that day
(names in white)

Some even called!!
(names in green)

And of course! Those in "Red" are the ones who really outdid everyone this year! =)
They were the ones who treated me to an "All-expense-paid" day at the mall!
YUP!

All expense paid!

Instead of the usual gathering wherein the birthday celebrator (yup! its celebrator not celebrant!) is the one in-charge of the bills, it was the other way around!!! This time, we went out and they treated me to everything I wanted!!! Movies, games, food, even transportation were all paid by them! Thanks guys!!!

Apparently it looks like I've focused too much on my birthday, and forgot the stuff that I was really supposed to write about, TODAY.

Well, I guess that was so because today wasn't really something, aside from the fact that I slept half the day off. Nothing really special...

Once again I would like to extend my HEARTFELT gratitude to the names stated above! Thanks guys!! Love YOU!!!! =)

Again... =)

Well, again I am here... Obviously boredom got my fingers moving again, clearly though, I don't think I have much to say.

Today was (let's pretend its already tomorrow, but I still used today, okay?) really different. I mean who would've thought "ore-sama" [Japanese; a weird way of addressing oneself, quite conceited-ly] would be fixing blog and friendster layouts? And even comment on people (well yeah, I FINALLY made 'testis'*testimonials for people, sorry though it wasn't for everybody since Friendster is kind of demented right now, or at least at home that is) as well as posting on "CBoxes" of co-bloggers. Obviously boredom really made its way to my system... *sigh*

Currently? I don't really know whether I'm "happy" that my day turned out this way, or the other way around. Again I'm confused.

I guess this is just how a person feels when they turn 16 the next day... =)

AutumnFrost

Its been quite a while since I last posted... (obviously)
Apparently I'm home alone with nothing to do and not feeling quite well.

It's so hard so have dreams and have the realization that they can NEVER be more than what they are, dreams.

'AutumnFrost' is actually a fragment of what I thought as tangible. It's a username I made for an account at "WRETCH" (don't ask me why wretch, the site was in chinese, so most likely it doesn't mean exactly the way it sounds), there I tried to reach the unreachable. And guess what?? It WAS unreachable, I somewhat just made a fool of myself. Good thing it wasn't my real name. But don't get me wrong, I really meant it. I meant whatever it is I posted there, I really want it.
I can only wait... *sigh*

I'm verry sorry.... =) Obviously you didn't understand a thing in the previous paragraph, =) My deepest apologies, I just didn't feel like I can embarass my self twice in a day, thus I kept the details, perhaps someday I'd find the courage to tell the WHOLE story, =) but its obviously not now.

I do hope the people concerened with the 'AutumnFrost' thingie, would find a way to get here and read these, maybe then they'd understand.

Lesson:
Dreams are a great source of strength, a great escape route. And it REALLY would be a courageous deed to pursue them, DON'T STOP! But I have to warn you. It won't be easy, and not all dreams are reachable, it would be painful... BUT! I would really encourage you to take the risk and go after them!!