Eternal Nights - Dawn at Midnight

Eternal Nights - The First Night

*Some things I cannot express in words, I express through writing…*

The First Night

For sixteen years, carcasses, blood splattered bodies, castrated body parts, and darkness has been part of my backdrop, normal scenes of every day… or better yet every night, and no, they’re not nightmares, their reality.

It’s a stormy night, cliché but true, and as I was just about to finish dusting this 17th century glass table, the door slammed open, slammed in chorus with the clap of thunder with two silhouettes illuminated clearly by the sudden flash of lightning.

In an instant, I knew it was my master. The shadow was more than enough proof already, not to mention the glow of his cold blue eyes that shown through his mask; and as the stormy winds blew past him and into the house, his dark black cape that was held in place by a round seal on his right shoulder flew just enough to show his birthmark that was just a few degrees above his navel and a few inches to the right which also had the same eerie glow that his eyes had.

The door shut behind them, they were utterly dry despite the heavy rains outside, something I am accustomed to.

“Good evening sires,” I greeted.

“Good evening,” the guy beside my master replied with his eyes glowing crimson. And without another word, they went up the ancient Greek inspired flight of stairs. The mark on his back just below the crease in his back, somewhere right under his tailbone of his vertebra caught my stare before it got covered again by his cloak; an exact replica of that on my master’s abdomen.

In nights like these, my master would never utter any word. His hand would just be entangled with his rendge, the man beside him, and it would be the latter that would do the talking.

They are both slender in shape, lean and muscular, my description don’t really seem to coincide nor are they anywhere near the actual sight that I beheld.

Not long after, through the shut doors, four lovely ladies came floating in, in their elegant Lolita-Victorian gowns with matching hats they added to the ambiance of the night. They gave their curtsey, nodded politely, and fled up the stairs. The crimson stains in their gowns are impossible to miss, but then again, it is part of what I normally see.

These four are what my master calls as his “Princesses”, four lovely ladies with elegance and grace that covers up everything else.

This is my home, these are my family, and this is how I’ve lived. And by the way, I am not sixteen; I’ve lost count of my age sixteen years ago, and now… I don’t need to. Who needs to count eternity? I am destined to live as long as my master, as long as these people I consider family, as long as everlasting to everlasting. To some, it is a curse, but for me… It’s a rare privilege that my uncle, and his uncles before him, granted. A privilege I shall forever cherish.

**Since I don't post often, I decided to just come up with this blog based story. It is a very, very, VERY, distant parallelism of some real life events and characters. Chapters would be in installment basis, so as to get me motivated to write... hopefully! =)) Hope you like it~ **

42 0... Again after what... 1? 2 years?

So okay, I'm not supposed to be doing this, but... I don't know what else to do! I need to get my mind off things.

Here I am again, procrastinating.

I have a literature project due last(?) week, and I have to pass it tomorrow.

Tired, yes, too tired actually.

I need to make a revised edition of the fairytale "Cinderella," I'm doing well, I think, but its just that... I am either too tired or too lazy... I can't write!!!

So why am I writing here instead of in MS Word?
Why am I creating a post and not doing my project?

Simple...

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Whew, that was hard! =)
I just needed to let it out, for me to have one less worry in mind~ =)

PS
To those who would be able to decipher the text, please, don't post it for public viewing. Thanks~

(Posted supposedly... last last week? or even earlier~ haha)

SAY NO TO TWILIGHT PINOY VERSION!!!!

Link: http://www.thepetitionsite.com/1/say-no-to-twilight-filipino-version

That's the site where you can voice out how much you don't want "Takipsilim" (the Twilight Filipino version) to be a reality!

Sign Sign Sign!! hahah

Its really SICK, how the Philippines want nothing but copied stuff.

Whew...

Its currently 12:40am and am still up procrastinating... as usual. =)

It just surprises me, how evident God's unending GRACE has really been in my 16years of existence.

In times when I find no hope, and everything seems to just be out of order, He's there. He fixes everything, yes EVERYTHING. It may not seem "fixed" in the eyes of men, but He sure knows what He's doing! =)

He makes sure that everyday I get to accomplish what I need to accomplish, though usually it seems as if I can't so anything right, when I start working? Everything just seems to fall into place.

I guess I just want to say :

TRUST GOD!
all we need is FAITH~ =)

So in whatever you do?
Trust in Him, that He will (and He surely will) carry you through~ =)

WE MADE HISSTORY!! (for.. 2months? max!)

You read that right!

WE, SENIORS '09, made history by being the first senior batch to NOT win the annual CSA Sportsfest.

And as our defeat is remembered, so is the Sophomore's glory remembered.

BUT HOLD IT!

Sadly, in about 2 months or less... Who would remember anything even occurred??

Awww... So much for going down in history~

Actually, we aren't mad at any particular batch, or anyone for that matter. (except probably for |lynz23)

But let us just get this straight.

Let's face it! The annual sports fest held is nothing but a day of CHEATING.

I will not go into details here, but we ALL know what happened. I believe that everyone has at least witnessed one incident or another.

And what about "FAIRNESS"??

1. We were supposed to use the song "Forever" for our cheerdance routine, but what happened? The school prohibited us. And so what's the catch?? On the day of the sporstfest, the Sophies danced to that tune... Now tell me what's fair??

2. A certain dance step was removed from the routine of our cheerdancers, and then what?? We see the same move performed by the Juniors! What a display of JUSTICE and FAIR JUDGEMENT!

3. Tradition, tradition, tradition. Our batch shirt was supposedly with hood attached, but what happened?? The school said that it was against TRADITIONS, and that if we were to push through with it, our Year Officers would have to be suspended and we are to pay a fine of 5000php. (Personally? I wonder what that 5000php is for.)

COME ON!! You tell us that we are free to design our shirts, and an added "hood" you won't allow! Oh, so you want to be "TRADITIONAL", then why not study not with books but with SCROLLS! And why not just stay at home and read them, after all THAT'S TRADITIONAL!

The list would go on and on, and I don't think this is the place to put them all down.

And for the record??

The Sophies' cheer may not be loud nor clear, it was really nice. And yep, I think it was better than ours. We may have the loudness and clarity (I think) but let's face it, some of our cheers have been lifted from HSM3 and some from who-knows-where. originality was a factor. Also, some of our cheers? 'Pinilit lang lagyan ng beat, wala naman talagang beat.'

The Muse, we all know our Cassandra Wang is really intellectual. But we all can see, we lack confidence. Cassie may have the best English (both in grammar and vocab) compared to all the other muses, but she lacks confidence. After all, she's not out to speak to a crowd very often. And I think that was a big factor. But one thing's for sure! THE BEST MUSE THAT WON MADE MY EARS BLEED WITH THEIR (she and her escort) "so-called" TALENT!!!!

And yeah, as for the Picture taking?

All we wanted was a little respect, I mean it is a TRADITION for the Seniors to have their batch picture taken right after the cosing ceremony, and we DON'T REALLY CARE IF ANY OTHER BATCH WOULD WANT THEIR PICTURE AS WELL!! All we wanted was for them to WAIT! I mean, that was OUR time. They can have their picture taken AFTER US.

*sigh*

Actually the picture taking thing is very trivial, its just that at that moment, we seniors weren't really in our best behavior anymore. After all those SHOCK we received. It was our bad. We shouldn't have made a big deal out of it.

And as for "|lynz23"...

What on earth do you want?? Braggin' won't get you anywhere! And besides, we do know you've won already, so why do that?? Fine, so maybe you just wanted to boost the morale of your batch mates, then MAYBE, just MAYBE you took careful notice as to whom that message would be sent to... Apparently it seems like you had the intention of sending it not just to Sophies but to OTHERS. How can i say so? There was this line at the bottom of your message that says something like ... "Wag ma-offfend yung ibang mga batch diyan..."

Anyways, what's done is done.

God would be the one to deal with the Ungodly~~ =)

And besides, who needs that trophy?? I mean we can't use it to get into Ateneo, UP, LaSalle, or UST can we?? Nor can we use it to get a job!! =)

And what else??

WHO NEEDS A TROPHY FROM A COMPETITION THAT YOU KNOW ISN'T FAIR??? WOULDN'T IT FEEL LIKE BEING CROWNED "CHAMPION OF CHEATERS" ????

Princesses~ =)

It was said in the Bible that we Christian are all BROTHERS and SISTERS in Christ right?
And that we are all HEIRS and HEIRESSES to out Lord's Kingdom right?

So that makes us all royalty!! haha (I am starting to sound cornier and cornier!)

And here are some of my "princesses", co-heirs to God's kingdom~ =)


Princess Luna
The moon! We usually identify ourselves as descendants(?) of the dark side of the moon! haha. She's a new Christian, but is doing real great. One time the other princesses were doing something that aren't really Christian like. And it was Luna who was really burdened to awaken them~ Her feelings are usually like that of the moon... One side is kept hidden. But despite that? She's as "true" as a friend can be.

Princess of Smiles
This princess smiles too much! =) And is very vocal of her emotions. Like Luna, this princess is a new Christian, and is really doing great! Recently she just suffered from a huge break-up, and since then? She learned that nothing helps more than trusting God~ Now? She's the one who always reminds us to trust God and cling on to Him! It may seem as though its always her who shares her problems, but don't be fooled! She's a great friend to turn to when you need someone to console with~

Princess Rhythm
This princess is a natural in the world of arts!! =) From sketching to drawing to painting and even to dancing! The most mature of all the princesses. Usually the one who reminds everyone when we go astray. But she does have some issues, and that's why we're here~ She may seem stubborn to most, but the truth is? She's ALL EARS! =) She listens well~ =) And a strong support whenever you need one!


Princess Princess
Always jolly and very seldom seem in gloom! If you need a friend who would "ride" with all your stories, jokes and "what-nots"?? She's the princess you go to!! =) And just like all the other three?? She knows how to love and give importance to her friends. Always there when you need someone to just be there and laugh your hearts out with! =)

I really am thankful for them! =)
And you know what?
WE noticed one thing...
With all the things that we are going through? We are staying strong together... because??

WE HAVE GOD!

WE cling to Him as a group~ And of course individually~ He's the center of our relationship, like all relationships should be! =)

TO MY PRINCESSES!! =)
Guys~ Labyuuu all! =)
Thanks for always being there for me~ =)
God bless~ =)

Dawn... *yawns*

It currently is 1:04am... and I can't go to sleep... not that I can't, but I shouldnt.
In 2 hours, we have to leave for the airport, we're flying to China first thing tomorrow morning.

*yawns*

Drowsiness is really starting to creep in on me,

but if I sleep now... I won't be able to wake up in time.

Apparently? I'm not really sure whether I am excited or nervous.

Yep, it is quite funny... but I don't know.

Maybe I just think too much, but I really am nervous.

It is really weird, on how a lot of times, in life we do things the way we do them. At times, something seems awfully wrong yet it is rightfully appropriate. And times when it feels right, its wrong! Man can really never be content can they...

A Product of My Reverie in My Sleepiness:

There's no point in dwelling too much on decisions made,
No sense is engaging in rapt contemplation for them either.
Why?
Because for every action there is an equal but opposite reaction.
Whatever it is that we have done,
Would surely yield something,
Something pleasant,
Something weird,
Something wrong,
Or even something divine.
No use wasting energy regretting choices made,
Because after all, they'd all have their consequences.
Consequences which are
RELATIVE in degree and effect~

It may seem silly to just stay up until we leave for the airport, and sleeping even for 4-5 hours would've been more logical.
But there's no point in thinking about that now, after all, what's done is done.
And on the bright side, there are things I was able to do, which obviously I can't do when I sleep~

~>Choices are constant in this life,

~>Decisions are to be pondered upon BEFORE making them.
And once made? Think not of whether you've made the right choice or not, rather, think of what to do with the consequences your actions brought about, be them GOOD or BAD.
=)