jUsT ANOTHER tHoUgHt...heheü

Humans are NEVER content...

Yes, never...

I guess its but because they don't want to be...

And yet they want to be happy...

They don't know that the first step, and perhaps the ONLY thing needed to be happy...

Is to learn to be content...

Sadly though...

I myself am one of those...

I don't know how to be content...YET...

Yes, Yet...

And hopefully soon it could be...

Pain...

We do know that "Life" is but one of God's grandest creations...
But we tend to criticize it, and one of the biggest criticisms we always give is that...
"Why did God add pain into the picture?? It would've been perfect without it..."
Just a while a go, I finished this book entitled "When Life Hurts by: Philip Yancey"
And boy... was I SURPRISED!

Here are some facts I've found from reading the book:
1) Pain is actually an important function our body has.
a. Without pain's warnings, some sports would be far too dangerous.
2) Without pain, art and culture would be very limited.
a.Musicians, painters, and sculptors ALL rely on the body's sensitivity to pain and pressure.
3)Without pain, there is no sex, for sexual pleasure is mostly carried by pain cells.


Without pain, numbness sets in. And contrary to what people might have been believing is that having a part of your body that's numb is actually a disadvantage. Yes it is! Without pain's warning, would you know that there's something wrong within your system?? Like a ruptured kidney for example??

[Some facts here might not be quite clear due to the fact that I've heard of this woman's testimony quite a long time ago already; sorry bout that]

I've heard of a woman who after recovering from an operation (she was operated to fix her nervous system if I am not mistaken, she had this disease that caused half of her body to be 'numb' and she can't control it, miraculously she had a successful operation), after which she didn't recover completely though.. Yes, now she can control her whole body already, but one of her hands (or the whole arm perhaps) is still numb but controllable. And due to this... She can't drive. Also, there are times wherein while cooking, she wouldn't notice that it's already her hand that's being cooked. Not to mention the times when she unknowingly would be able to cut herself, stab herself, and accidents like that.



You see how dangerous it is?? To be numb??

Shocked weren't you?? Aside from pain being an expert mean of punishment to mold a person, who'd have thought it has these functions??

As you can see, once again we are proven wrong. God, again, showed us His superiority over EVERYTHING! These discoveries about pain only shows how God's design is really FLAWLESS, and PERFECT.

So the next time something "weird" strucks you, and makes you doubt God's power.
Always remember to:
-check the BIBLE and pray
-consult "God's Body of believers"
and lastly...
- just TRUST HIM, trust in His faithfulness that whatever happens, HE is in control and that it is for your good, and most importantly...
FOR HIS GLORY!!!

My God... My Strength... Forever...

When my heart was grieved
and my spirit embittered,
I was senseless and ignorant;
I was a brute beast before You.

Yet I am always with You;
You hold me by my right hand.
You guide me with Your counsel,
and afterward You will take me into glory.

Whom have I in heaven but You?
And earth has nothing I desire besides You.
My flesh and my heart may fail,
but God is the strength of my heart
and my portion forever.

Psalm 73:21-26

"From this
point onwards... This verse I shall but try to apply... My God, the only
strength I can lean onto when my feebleness strikes. I will but strive hard to
be an instrument for His Glory... And to be able to fulfill my duties as a
friend, a son, and an heir to His eternal
kingdom.... "

...jUsT a ThOuGhT....ü

'In the end, what's important is what's in your heart. Your dream, your
desire, for it’s the ONLY thing that could push you to the end.
Thus if your
heart's desire is to serve God, then nothing, yes nothing, would be able to make
you lose heart... :)'

**This is the revised version already, the original is not that far from this though... but the wordings have been changed..** check the label below....**

These words came to me right after we watched the movie "Surf's Up"[Aug./19/2007 {11:35pm more or less}]

DeSiReS...

There's power beyond comprehension within each of us...

Yes, each and every one of us...

A "drive" that pushes us...

To limits far more than what we were limited to...

Our DESIRES...

It’s the one single thing that can change a firmly rooted mind...

It’s something that could make a mind rooted...

No one is exempted from this...

From one's desires...

Desires vary...

In depth...

In meaning...

And in justifiable-ness...

But one thing's for sure...

ALL, yes ALL...

Has the same power...

The power of Destruction...

Of Construction...

Of Devastation...

And of Hope...

The question is...

WHERE does you DESIRE drive you too??

To a bright Future with joy and happiness untold??

Or...

To eternal condemnation and torment??

LiFe...

The rain continuously falls...

Forming a silhouette on this enormous stage...

Wherein I am an actor...

This stage...

This play...

called...

Life...

A continuous cycle of dialogues...

Pauses...

But no intermissions...

Every minute a new scene...

Every hour a new episode...

Everyday a new chapter...

There is a script...

An outline of events to follow...

Sadly though...

We performers haven't touched nor seen it...

It's in our Director's Hands.

He keeps it, He made it and He's in charge of it...

We know nothing of what's to happen next...

We do have knowledge about what happened already though...

And we pattern our next "acts" to the previous ones...

And so on...

And so forth...

It is but a series of decisions...

We decide how to cope...

The Director controls THE STAGE...

Props come in and out...

The setting changes as often as He wants...

The music's dramatic...

That's about what He does...

The rest...

It's up to us...

We decide...It's our choice...

AMGB[Part II]

*Sigh*
I thought I was FINALLY over it...
This morning I thought I'm finally fine...
Sadly...
NOW...
It's back...
It haunts me again...
This feeling taunts me!!
I'm so SAD...
Yes... sad...
and I STILL DON'T KNOW WHY...
DARN!!
This music that plays behind me...
SH*T!!
It saddens me more...
My heart...
My mind...
I can't control it!!!!
Even my arms and my hands are shivering...
I am but at the mercy of my ever so weird emotions...
It HURTS inside...
And I don't know why!!
I feel...
down...
depressed...
annoyed...
excited...
Yes, I'm excited for some reasons!!
It bugs me!!
Constantly!!
Thus uncertainty within me...
What can I do??

Aug./17/2007 {7:49pm}

A Man’s Gravest Battle

Sadly... Am so depressed yet I am but clueless of the reason...

Human I remain to be

And thus LIMITATIONS are inevitable...

But I struggle... Hard if I must say so myself...

Looks like it's not enough though...

Right now, my feebleness I can clearly see...

It's a part of me I can't lose, a part I can't remove...

I sit here, helpless...

Today seems so wrong...

I have no idea why, but it does,

I want to escape...

To go far...

But there's no place for running away...

My chest feels like led....

I feel like am continuously crying....

Both inside and out...

I tried...

But my mind is stuck...

It's stuck in this hopeless situation...

I can't seem to dig it out...

My strength’s depleted...

My soul in anguish...

My mind, unstable...

What then should I do??

Where then should I go??

To whom shall I turn to??

The battle I now fight...

Is waged within...

Unseen...

Unknown...

Unfelt...

It remains to be...

It's a battle I fight...

Against something...

Or someone...

Who knows everything that remains to be unknown to me...

It's a siege...

An assault wherein I try my best to defend myself...

from...

MYSELF.........

ü

Am in our school's COM. LAB!!!

Haha, just felt like writing since it's gonne be quite next to impossible to be able to do this again IN THE COM.LAB!!!

hehe, anyways so far life has been...um....not bad?!

problems came..

some too heavy.. some moderately so... and some are so not-needed-to-be-taken-care-of...ü

haha....5-mins.

that's all i have left...

the bell will ring soon...

so far..

i guess this is the only entry..maybe the last entry that am not depressed...hehe

*magbebell na..hehe