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FINALLY!

Things seem to somehow make more sense now... Of course, am still not THAT sure if its really the right way of piecing things together, but am hoping for it to be :)

There are a lot of things that I want to, and need to do.

I want to make it big, I want to go places, and I HAVE to do things...

They never seemed to be reconcilable, until today.

Well, of course there still are blind spots, but hey, if I can get to comprehend His mater plan... Then its no longer HIS plan now is it? :)

Three Things

ONE
Mountain Trekking is plain F.U.N. ^^ Yes, of course it was pretty tiring... Okay, enough with the euphemism... it WAS tiring. BUT WAIT! The summit was worth every aching muscle! What's more? It just reaffirmed how NOTHING, and I mean NOTHING shouts praises louder than creation! Atop that majestic mountain, I couldn't help but be in pure awe of how magnificent my God is! And that's not all... Apparently His creations weren't enough, He just had to make me realize: I was with you every faltering step of the way. If that doesn't send chills down your spine, then maybe you have yet to know how HE actually feels like.

The trip up was around 3 hours long, very painful on the legs and thighs, not to mention the heat from the ever present sun. The 2-hour trip back down was less painfulbut still it was, this time on your ankles and knees. AT LEAST though, at the third station of the mountain, there was a Halo-Halo (A Filipino cold treat, mixed fruits with jellies or what-nots, milk, some sugar, and crushed ice) stand! And there were coconut vendors up there too!


If the mountain was not enough, the beach was a definite plus! We camped by the shore, yeap, we slept in tents, cooked our own food, and fended for ourselves! (Haha, the last one not really true in the truest sense of the word.)

It was a camp out for our PE class, Walking For Fitness, and yes, its pretty peculiar how our walking class ended up hiking... But whatever! It was FUN!


TWO
PAPER CUPS!

Apparently, UP (University of the Philippines) is now taking pro-nature steps: plastic cups and stryofoam containers are not anymore allowed in our canteens!(Okay, so I'm not really sure about the memorandum that was issued out, but base on what little I know, I write.) Its not really that significant, but I don't know, somehow it just seemed like a nice thing to write about; and besides, I had this weird feeling holding the paper cup in my hand when I first bought a drink from one of our canteens that usually gave me my drink in a plastic cup. Well, I guess its just that bubbly feel that you have been part of something historic. Haha.


THREE
ARGH!!! I forgot the last thing I was going to write about =(

Delusional | Obsessed

Okay, so I actually was planning to blog about an update regarding the "430Php" thing, and mind you, I actually have somehow already composed what I was going to be write...

But then, when I focused on the issue of actually being "delusional" and/or "obsessed" ...

Something just gushes forth within me, and poof... I'm lost again in a semi-trance state.

Okay, I know it seems like I am romanticizing things, and I do know my exaggeration tendencies, but in this matter? How I wish I'm just over-reacting.

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My mind's sort of clearing, maybe I can right something now.

(And I have to do it fast, my laptop's battery is about to be completely drained.)

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Okay, so on the issue of whether it is "right" or not with Him, is still unclear. Maybe its just me blurring the line, being insensitive, OR maybe He just doesn't think that it already is time for me to know...

I'm currently patiently waiting for this Sunday; I sort of made of a deal with Him... Again, operative word being "sort of"...

Uhmmm... What else?

I guess that's it...

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Actually, I was planning to create a post that would somehow be able to enlighten some of my concerned friends about what I really am babbling about...

But apparently, I've failed horribly...

430Php

That is the exact amount I squandered on feeding my delusion, yes, feeding my delusion.

Apparently, its not as though I'm in the dark when it comes to me being deluded and crowded by my own desires (as heavy as the word "desire" is, I have to admit, it's appropriate); I'm not crazy (in the medical sense of the word) so as to not know when I already am rationalizing things which are usually unreasonable for me.

So here it is, one of the tangible evidences of my... hmmm... how do I put it... Obsession? (Something like that I guess...) I bought a CD for 430Php, when I think about it, its not that much for an original album, considering the fact that its not of local origins... But hey, as I have been tattling about awhile ago, I know when something I'm doing is already somehow.. "off." Its not wrong, just off.

For someone always complaining about lacking enough spending money, buying something that's not a necessity is so out of line...

Well, enough about all that... Bottom line actually is the fact that, I'm again obsessed with "something." Obsessed is such a strong word, but I'm lacking the correct term... All I know is that I'm wanting something, and am starting to border between delusional and medically insane.(Hah! I wish!) Maybe that's it, I'm delusional. Hence? Buying that CD was obviously ME spoiling myself, and in a way, pushing myself into something I'm clearly supposed to veer away from.

I can of course justify buying it, and mind you, my reasons for justifying are by no means "forced rationality" (if there is such a term), but again, (argh, why am I SO redundant?!) I know that no matter how justified it may be... it just isn't right on SO many levels.

BUT HEY!

I LOVE BEING DELUSIONAL! =)) And I mean it~ =)

Sadly though, I'm not "completely" delusional... I can still sense reality, I can't close my eyes totally... Soon though, soon.

I guess this is basically an episode of the "prodigal saint" being prodigal and trying to come back again ;p

On the issue of it being wrong... Well, its still something He and I are talking about; or better yet, its still something I'm waiting for Him to clarify~ =)